Hello everyone. It’s been quite a while since I did a mental health update, the last time was December 2018 and some things have changed since then, so I thought I would do one today. The structure of this post will be more or less similar to my previous mental health updates in the sense I will be discussing how I’ve been feeling and the symptoms I’ve been experiencing.
I would love to say that things have been pretty smooth sailing but unfortunately they haven’t been. A few things have happened since the last time I updated you.
I am now on double the amount of dosage of my anti depressants. Unfortunately, since the year has started, I’ve been struggling more with my depression more so than anxiety. I’ve felt really low some days which hasn’t been the greatest feeling for me. The annoying thing is I can’t pinpoint exactly what has caused me to feel like this. I have been struggling with the idea of what I want to do about university but when I’ve struggled with that before, it affects my anxiety more so than my depression.
Don’t get me wrong, there have been moments where my anxiety hasn’t been the best but not on the scale of my depression.
I do want to end this blog post on a slightly more positive note though. It’s okay to have ups and downs during your mental health journey. Everyone has their ups and downs and it doesn’t mean you’re never going to get better. I did struggle with feeling like that initially, especially after having CBT last year, in the sense that the effort I had put in to making my mental health better had been wasted. THAT’s not the case. It’s a part of your journey.
As I’m writing this, my mental health is okay at the moment. It’s not great. It’s not bad. It’s okay. This is proving to me that it was just a wobble in my journey and I’m now on the road to getting better.
I’m sorry this blog post was so short. I’ve been unwell this week and so my brain is extremely foggy. It will get better, I promise.